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August 2nd, 2010

(no subject) @ 02:34 pm

one of my closest friends is the biggest procrasinator in the world... I am busting my ass trying to help her get shit done that she should have done months ago, and she is seriously dragging her ass... I am afraid I might have to shoot her.

I should just give up and let her fall on her ass.

July 10th, 2010

I LOL'd @ 06:06 am

It is hysterical to me that the acting in the gay porn version of twilight is infinitely better that the acting in the real movie.

May 5th, 2010

(no subject) @ 06:49 am

it seems like lately livejournal has become where people write the unabridged version of their facebook posts... just an amusing observation... well, at least it was amusing to me.

March 22nd, 2010

(no subject) @ 07:45 pm

wow... I haven't posted here in a long time... but then again just about anyone who might be reading anything I post here is a friend of mine of facebook... so I guess not really a big deal.

on the subject of facebook... I don't understand people that collect friends like the number means something... I trim my last down frequently because I end up with random people that friend me because we apparently met at some point during my life, and then I quickly realize by the kind of things that they say that we are not at all compatable friendship-wise.

One of the people I have friended is someone I went to middle school with, and I honestly was fond of her then, and I could totally see us getting together and hanging out one day... but she has over a thousand people listed as friends on facebook... that's just ridiculous. -- it wouldn't even be possible to keep up with a friendslist with that many people on it... especially if you have anyone at all like several of my friends that post multiple times per day.

I can see maybe having a hundred people friended... most of them probably being merely acquaintces and friends of friends... but anything over that just makes no sense to me.

February 8th, 2010

never again... @ 07:16 am

I woke up at 1am because my mother was shaking my shoulder. She then told me that Ducky had taken the car to go get something to eat... and that was 3 hours ago. Panic insued as I woke up and put on clothes. My mother told me that Ducky was going to go to the Wendy's that was down the street from the Taco Bell... I started thinking trying to figure out what the hell he had been talking about. There is no Wendy's anywhere near a Taco Bell around our house. Although Ducky has lived with me in Houston for over a year and half now, as he doesn't drive he has never really learned his way around. I knew that he had gotten confused, but I figured when he didnt find it, he would find his way back home.

I tried calling his cell phone, but it went straight to voicemail... so it was either dead, or just turned off.

So, I get my mom's cars keys and start driving around... after 45 minutes, I decided that driving around without knowing where to look for him at almost 2am was a bad idea. I came back home and me and my mom started trying to think about what could have happened. As Ducky has no driver's lisence, I began to think that maybe he had gotten pulled over and arrested... so we started calling around to the police departments to see if he had been arrested and the towing companies to see if the cars had been impounded... no luck there.

So, right when I had decided that he must have been in car accident and I that I needed to call around to the local hospitals and see if he was there... he finally made it back home.

Apparently he had gotten terribly lost and had been trying to find his way back home... he pulled over and bought a map and the person at the convenience store was nice enough to indicate on the map where he was... so he looked up our street name, but it was the wrong side of town... but he finally managed to find his job location on the map, went there, and was able to get home from there.

I am so glad that he is okay and that he didnt get pulled over or anything. I made Ducky promise me that he would never leave the house without his cel phone again... and after the last few hours, I decided that since Ducky and I are eligible for new phone from Verizon anyway, that I would get him a phone that is compatible with Navigation software... so for $10 a month his new phone with also serve as a GPS device so that he can always find his way home.

I feel much better now.

December 29th, 2009

grades and holidays... then ranting about religion. @ 04:07 am

feelin kinda: : bitchy bitchy
Singing along with:: paramore

For those that aren't connected to me via email or facebook, my semester ended up going well... although the last couple of weeks almost killed me. I ended up with 4 Bs and 1 A.... not the best I have ever done but I am still pretty happy with it. -- and I am now enjoying the few more weeks I have off until the next semester starts.

We had a pretty good Chrismakahuleazaa... lol, I don't even know what to call it anymore... I don't really celebrate any of the holidays that coincide with the winter holiday season, but I do enjoy the giving/receiving gifts.... so more than anything its more like "We made it through another year, so we deserve these things"

I did however remove a whole bunch of people from my facebook friends list due to excessive Jesus-ness... I think the absolute last straw was when this girl I went to high school with started this rant about abbreviating Christmas to Xmas... she was like 'We need to put the "Christ" back in Christmas because Christ's birth is really what it's all about'... and my first thought was to respond and educate her about Christmas's pagan origins, that historically Jesus was actually born in the summer, and that the pagan holiday that got hijacked and became Christmas celebrates the return of the SUN God... not the son of God... and that basically everything that is done to celebrate Xmas is directly pagan, from the yule log turned Xmas tree, to the mistletoe... hell even the exchanging of gifts is a pagan thing that was modified so that the pagans would accept christiany being forced down their throats.

... but rather than going off, I decided it was easier to just nip this in the bud and de-friend her along with about 7 or 8 other people who had made like-minded entries.

I am just not a religious person... but I try to just not discuss it as often as possible. My LJ is probably the only place I ever really discuss religion. I don't mind if people are religious as long as they dont shove it down my throat... although I do think that the world will be a better place when people finally outgrow religion.

When I look back at History and all the different beliefs that people have had, the ways they tried to explain that which couldn't be explained at the time... that's all religion is to me... people trying to explain what they don't understand by pointing a finger at a fictional character that and saying "well, he did it... but don't ask how or why... just believe" -- sorry, but no.

anywho... it is now the wee hours of the morning and I should have gone to bed long ago.

...? @ 01:30 am

I am not really sure at this point if I should continue posting here or not... I think pretty much everyone that I am actually in contact with here is now on my facebook list.

So I guess I will pose a question... should I continue posting here once in a while, or is it pointless?

December 15th, 2009

(no subject) @ 12:03 pm

I can't believe that there is actually someone kinda in my family that is excited about an upcoming Christmas party because... and I quote "I get to debut my Laboutins!!"

i have no words.

December 11th, 2009

(no subject) @ 01:20 pm

papers are all done, and I have now finished 3 of my 5 finals... I have the last two on Wendesday and Thursday next week... so plenty of time to finally relax before then. Once my finals are all done, I have a lovely month off before the next semester starts.

I have already signed up for my classes for the Spring. I will be taking "Film History" (lit class), "Studies in English Grammar", "The Meaning of Life" (philisophy), "Studies in Dramatic Literature", and "Educational Technology" (my first teaching course" -- I will have classes from 10:00am - 5:15pm on Monday/Wednesday -- and then from 1:00pm to 3:00pm on Thursday only.

My only real concern is how am i going to carry around all the books for the 4 classes I have on Monday/Wednesday. I may end up having to carry around 2 backpacks or something... I am definitely going to look into one of those backpacks on wheels that you pull around like a suitcase, but they dont really make them large enough to carry books and binders for 4 classes... unless I get an actual carryon suitcase, but that is going a little overboard I think.

December 2nd, 2009

it almost over!! @ 05:16 am

feelin kinda: : accomplished accomplished
Singing along with:: Suckerlove - Kate Havnevik

Praise whatever deity their may or may not be out there.... the semester is almost over. -- I have been pulling my hair out of the past week because I had 4 papers that I had to write and they are all due at roughly the same time... As of a few minutes ago, I have now finished 3 of the 4 papers... Just one left... feels like almost nothing.

All I have is today and tomorrow and then classes for the semester are officially over. Then I have finals for the next two weeks, but I am not really stressing those right now.

So, now I am going to take a break and eat something and then dive back into the last assignment... which, if you want to get technical, I haven't really even read the novella, or the critique, that the assignment is supposed to be about... Go Go Gadget BS Skills!!

November 15th, 2009

(no subject) @ 06:32 pm

by the way, I am really enjoying Windows 7 =)

so tired.... @ 06:31 pm

feelin kinda: : tired tired
Singing along with:: i dont have time for music. =(

Just one more month of the current semester... I can't wait for it to be over.

Of all the years I have been taking college classes, I have never felt so completely occupied with schoolwork as I have this semester... Yes, part of it could be because I am taking 5 classes at once when in the past I have taken 4 or less... but I don't think it's the amount of classes, it's the amount of work PER CLASS.

In the past, most of my classes have been the kind of classes where you go and listen to a lecture, and then you have tests over the material you have covered. Aside from the occassional essay you don't really have any out-of-class work that needs to be done other than reviewing for tests.

This semester, only 1 out of my 5 classes is like that. The other four classes involve TONS of reading and writing these long analytical essays. I feel like I am constantly behind and struggling to keep up. When the weekend comes, all I want to do is relax and do anything but homework, but I don't really have time to because I have so much work that I need to do to try to stay caught up in my classes.

Never before have I been the person to look for easy alternatives to actually doing the work... but this semester I have had no other option. I have been looking up e-notes and sparknotes and bookrags notes for just about everything we have gone over because I simply do not have the time to read and analyze everything that is put in front of me, and have time to write deep analytical essays.

I currently am juggling 4 essays that are all due in the next couple of weeks. I am halfway done with the rough drafts or 3 of them, the fourth I haven't even started yet... two are 5 page essay, one is a 7 page essay, and the fourth one I am not even sure about yet because we haven't been given the formal assignment yet.

I need a break so badly... and the fact that I only get one day off for Thanksgiving kinda bums me out.. but at the least the semester is almost over... just a couple of more weeks of classes... then finals... then I will have a full month off before the next semester begins. I plan to sleep a lot.

October 24th, 2009

*cries* @ 07:24 pm

I made a to-do list for my homework because I wanted to make sure I didnt forget anything.... and now I feel completely overwhelmed. My "fight or flee" thing has kicked in and I want to flee. -- I know I need to just take it one thing at a time and prioritize... but I would much rather just go and watch TV.

So, Instead I decided this was a great time to not procrastinate on something else entirely... and I went and planned my schedule for next semester since registration starts next week.... totally on the bottom of the priority list, but its done. Now I just need to go see a councelor and make sure the classes I have selected fit the requirements and get it approved.


*stares at homework to-do list*

October 11th, 2009

(no subject) @ 08:43 pm

homework...homework... and more homework... I dont have time for anything else these days.

September 20th, 2009

le sigh. @ 12:49 am

there are so many books that I want to read right now, and I just don't have the time... I have never been as busy with school work before as I am this semester... i guess that is just how it is going to be until I finish my degree because I am going to have multiple literature classes every semester until I graduate -- I have 10 more literature classes that I have to take to get my degree.

I just did the math... when this semester is over I will have 76 out of the 145 credit hours that I will need to graduate with the degree and certification so that I can teach... so if I continue taking classes 5 at a time (15 credit hours) like I am doing right now... it will take me 4.6 semesters ~ so therefore 5 more semesters to finish... which means finish up this school year, and then 2 full more years... so i will be done in Summer 2012.

Of course, if I can somehow squeeze enough money out of my student loans to afford a summer class or two, I could cut off one semester and be done in December of 2011, but I don't know if that will be financially possible... and of course, this is also working under the assumption that they will have the right classes offered at the right times so that I am able to take 5 classes at a time.... especially with the 3 semsters that will include my teaching blocks that require a significant amount of time spent in the class room observing/student teaching.

*sigh* -- I just keep telling myself, at least you are more than half way done... you are walking down the mountain now.

September 15th, 2009

more blathering on about school... @ 01:28 am

wish I had something else to talk about other than school, but not much else is going on these days.

school is still going well... currently have three papers I need to write, in a format I have never written in before, something called a "Close Reading"... is this some new thing? I had never even heard of a close reading before this semester, and now I have 3 of them for 3 different classes, and they are all due within the same 24 hour period... am kind of struggling with them because I keep wanting to focus on content and interpretation of the material, whereas apparently the point of a close reading paper is to write about the format and presentation of the material... I may have to take advantage of the writing lab that the university offers and go get help from a tutor... I've never had to seek out help on a paper before.

Out of curiosity, I just did a google search for "close reading" and something that I was reading sparked an idea (hehehe, I got hit by the paper-writing-equivelant of a plot bunny) and I got some work done on 1 of the three... the other two I still need to work on. I hope that my professors talk more about the papers in class, I can't be the only one that is having a hard time with these.

I think my most interesting class this semester is my Human Sexuality class... I find it more enjoyable than any of my other classes... although it, like the others, requires a lot of reading... speaking oh which, I should really get back to it now.

September 7th, 2009

T.G.I. Labor Day @ 12:25 pm

So school is going really well... I have completely abandoned trying to take my car and park at the campus, even though I paid $50 for a parking pass for the campus parking lot, it is still impossible to find a spot anywhere... I circled the other day for 20 minutes in the campus parking lot, along with about 15 other cars, and in the end I ended up going to a pay lot and spending another $5... and as i was walking towards the campus, I couldn't help but notice how many other people in the pay lot had the same parking passes for the campus lot hanging from their mirrors.... apparently many of us wasted all that money and can never find a parking spot, and are now wasting more money everyday to pay again to park somewhere else.

So, I am now taking public transportation, the Metro Lightrail drops me off literally at the front door of the campus, and it picks up not far from my house at all. I get a student discount, so my fare is only half price. -- and with the money I will be saving on gas not driving to downtown and back 4 days a week, it will more than pay for the parking at the Lightrail lot. ($40 a month)

anywho, I have much homework that I need to be working on... a paper to write and a ton that I need to read... 4 lit classes at one time is tough.

August 24th, 2009

jitters @ 05:37 am

today is my first day at University of Houston Downtown. I am excited and kinda nervous. Wish me luck =)

August 11th, 2009

school @ 02:57 am

my degree finally arrived in the mail - it feels more official now. I am having it framed. My next semester starts in just two more weeks, I am very excited. I went ahead and bought my books. only spent $325 on books for 5 classes, was pleasently surprised... I have come to the conclusion after many semesters that if you spend less that $100 per class on books, you are doing very well and I only had one book this semester that hit the 100 mark.

August 4th, 2009

I'm still here.... anyone else? @ 02:03 pm

It occured to me today that I haven't posted on here in awhile, so I checked and it's been almost a month.

So, the weight loss thing is going well... we missed going to the gym for a week because Ducky's sister has thyroid cancer and she had surgery last Monday, and then when she got out of the hospital Ducky went to stay with her for 5 days while she was recuperating. -- but we are going back to the gym tonight.

We haven't actually weighed in or anything, but I can tell that I have lost weight, I can feel it.

Just 3 more weeks until my next semester starts. I am uber-excited. New school, new degree progress, what's not to love.

My friend Alicia wanted to start playing world of warcraft again, and she begged me to come play with her, so I have re-activated my account and now Ducky is playing also. We are having fun with it. It's nice to be able to play casually, unlike the first two years where I was totally addicted... Although I do worry that Ducky is rapidly becoming addicted.... we are going to have to schedule nights where we dont play so that we can do other things.

I still haven't gone to see the new Harry Potter yet, and I really want to go see it - maybe this weekend.

July 3rd, 2009

(no subject) @ 01:29 am

well, I finsihed the first Sookie Stackhouse book and started reading the second book... I got about 2 chapters in when I got introduced to the character that I was hoping was not in the second book... so, I have realized that I can not continue to read the book unless I want to spoil myself for Season 2 of True Blood... which I do not want to do.

So, I am taking a detour and I have decided that I am going to read Phillip Pullman's His Dark Materials Trilogy, which has been on my to-do list for a while... and then I will either divert back to the Sookie Stackhouse series... or I will go in an entirely different direction and start reading The Dresden Files series.

so many books, so many choices... and for the next month and a half... so much time.

I know when next semester starts I will have a ton to read, but for classes, not for personal enjoyment.

July 1st, 2009

not much. @ 08:32 pm

I often forget about my LJ these days... I am on facebook so much it never even occurs to me to come over here and post.

So what's new? not much... just reading a lot and enjoying my summer off before I start full time school back up in the fall... actually more than full time.. that would be 12 hours... I am taking 15.

I got new sheets yesterday... yay new sheets... they are a white with a green and blue plaid design and they are a real soft Flannel. We got them at Sam's for like $35.... overall we spent over $200 for everything we got, so we are totally broke now for the next two weeks, but it was worth it.

anywho... I finished the twilight series and I am now reading the Sookie Stackhouse books.... so far so good.

June 24th, 2009

(no subject) @ 11:03 pm

it was 104 degrees today.... I am sooo scared of what August is going to bring. I am already afraid to step outside in fear that I may burst into flames.

June 23rd, 2009

it's the little things that make me happy. @ 02:31 pm

feelin kinda: : thankful thankful

another day at 99 degrees (plus ridiculous humidity)... it's too hot to even try to function... am glad I don't HAVE to leave the house for any reason today (Ducky works early shifts on Tuesday so my mom provides transportation as it is on her way to and from work) ... I will just stay happy in my room with my window unit A/C blasting and watch TV and read stuff on my kindle. =)

June 22nd, 2009

Kindle Time -- and book pimping for my friend =) @ 02:41 pm

My kindle arrived today... opened the box about half an hour ago and so far I LOVE it... it is charging now... I have already gone and bought my friend wl551's book "Half of Me", which if you are inclined to check out, you can purchase here --> Buy "Half of Me" at Freya's Bower and support my friend

I plugged it into my laptop, only to discover that when you plug it in via usb, it goes into USB mode, and you can't play with it... it says that when you eject it from the usb it will still charge and you can continue playing with it... but it didn't so much work... which probably has more to do with my laptop running Vista than it does with the kindle itself - I have noticed that Vista acts strangely with usb things that you eject but still have plugged in... I shall have to test this hypothesis with my regular comp running XP later.

I have already managed to take one of the ebooks I already had on my computer in .mobi format and transfer it over to the kindle via USB... came out prefectly fine... so while kindle is charging, I am going to work on converting the rest of my ebooks into .mobi format.


June 21st, 2009

school stuff mostly @ 07:04 am

feelin kinda: : happy happy

So, I love the new laptop... I am using it right now... I have been trying to use it as much as possible so that I can get use to the keyboard... it has pretty much become my primary computer... I haven't even turned my old computer on it days.

My kindle still hasn't arrived yet, despite amazon saying that the delivery estimate was on Friday, the 19th. I am watching for it every day.

I went to my transfer student orientation for University of Houston Downtown on Tuesday... I really think I am going to love my new campus... it is so much more impressive than my old school... it's kinda like going from a bicycle to a limosine. -- There is a Starbucks, a Smoothie King, a Chick Fil-A, and a Taco Bell all IN the building... the library is two entire floors of the main building (which is 10 floors high) -- there are 3 big student lounge areas with comfortable seating and tables everywhere -- the whole building has WiFi so I can use my laptop anywhere.

I went ahead and got signed up for next semester which starts on Aug. 25th. -- I will be taking 15 hours (5 classes) -- On the afternoons on Mon/Wed I will be taking Brit Lit I and Brit Lit II (yup, I am taking both at the same time) -- then on Tues/Thur evenings, I am taking Intro to Poetry, Intro to Fiction, and Human Sexuality (to fulfill social sciences requirement)... I am slightly concerned about the amount of material I am going to have to read for all these English classes, but I there really is no way around it... my schoolwork is going to be reading intensive.

On a postive note, my financial aid came through ina big way -- the amount of money I am getting for my pell grant will almost completely cover my tuition, so all I really have to pay for is my books -- so I can take the minimal amount of student loans possible and not bury myself in debt. YAY.

I am still hoping to get at least one of my textbooks in kindle format this semester.... who knows, maybe I will get lucky and find more that that.

anywho... today I am going to lunch with my mom and a bunch of her work friends and then we are all going to go see Cabaret... originally another work friend was going, but she got sick at the last minute so I inherited her spot.

June 9th, 2009

New Toys!!! @ 12:36 am

I know I haven't been posting much here lately... I do check my friendslist daily, but I guess I just haven't had anything worth posting about (other that the dog attack) as I have kinda come to the conclusion in my head that my LJ has become a place for more lengthy posts... while random every day crap or meaningless stuff (although often funny and enjoyable) that is shorter is getting put on facebook. I post every day there if not more often and I really enjoy the social interraction on that site. It reminds me how much I used to love LJ way back when people actually used to post regularly... lately I have seen my friendslist here sometimes go 2 or 3 days without any new posts... it makes me sad.

Anyway... I had a reason to post...

I came to the conclustion about a month ago that I need a laptop... for practical reasons as well as personal entertainment reasons. My new university is not nearly as close to my house as my community college was, so it is not practical for me to return home if I have a break between classes, even if it is a lengthy break (It will probably take me almost an hour to get there as I will be parking my car in a public lot and taking the lightrail.) So I decided that it would be necessary for me to get a laptop so that I could do schoolwork when I was away from home, and I will probably be using my laptop in class as well.. it seems that using laptops in class is becoming a norm. -- So, I knew I didn't have the money to pay for one outright, so I talked to my mom and she agreed to finance it for me so that I could make payments on it... So, using my new student discount at my new university, I went to the dell website and customized a nice laptop and bought it a couple of weeks ago. It is supposed to arrive at my house within the next 2 days. I am very excited.

I am also very happy now that I did do the customizing and made the laptop nicer than it really needed to be because it seems more and more to me lately that my desktop computer is becoming horribly outdated. After much anticipation, I finally got my copy of Sims3 (which I preordered back around Christmas time for its original release date) only to install it and learn that my computer can't run the game... My processer is too slow, I don't have enough memory, and my graphics card is to old. *suckage* -- So I was very happy the next day to get the email notification that my laptop has been shipped... in the meantime the Sims3 game is sitting on my desk taunting me.

So, as if this wasn't great enough... My father, my step-mother, and my grandparents all decided to give me some money as a graduation present... and lo and behold, I got enough to afford a Kindle DX. I was so excited I almost wet myself when I figurd out I had enough to buy it. AND of course, it has it's practical applications as well.. they are starting to release more and more textbooks in Kindle format these days, so hopefully I will be able to find some of my textbooks while at the university in Kindle format and save some money. -- My kindle should arrive on Monday the 15th.

I am SO excited about my new toys... So So excited. *explodes*

June 6th, 2009

the neighbor's pitbull strikes again. @ 11:56 pm

feelin kinda: : angry pissed the fuck off.

Yet another installment in the ongoing drama.... Today the neighbor's pitbull decided to randomly attack and pull off one of the fence pickett's. All three of our dogs happened to be in the backyard at the time, and our boxer Chico ran over to defend his territory... The pitbull got a hold of Chico by the neck and woudn't let him go. My mom was on our side of the fence and the neighbor was on his side of the fence both trying to put the dogs apart. -- The neighbor finally got his dog to let go and we rushed Chico to the vet.

He had a very deep gash in the front of his neck about 2 inches long. Several stitches and a $300 vet bill later, and here we are again.

The is the 5th time that fucking dog has attacked one of our dogs... it has killed one of our dogs, bitten the tail off another... this is the second throat gashing, and another dog lost a toe.

I just don't understand wanting to keep a dog that is that fucking vicious... I am not anti-pitbull. We had a pitbull for a brief time... in fact the pitbull we had was one of the victims of our neighbor's dog.

For fucks sake, the neighbor's pitbull killed one of their other dogs before it ever attacked any of our dogs... what more has to happen before they do something about it. Our neigbor has a 2 year old daughter...what if that fucking dog attacks her? will that be enough for him to do something.

When my mom tried to talk to him, all he said was "it takes two dogs to fight." -- what complete and utter bullshit. His dog is the one doing all the fucking attacking, that has ALWAYS been the case. Chico wouldn't hurt a fly.

If I didn't fear retaliation, I would throw some poison meat over the fence in a heartbeat... but I know our neighbor all to well... we have known him all our lives... if we did anything, we would have slashed tires and broken windows, not to mention our dogs would end up dead as well.

We have called animal control before... but since their dog didn't actually enter our backyard, they won't do a fucking thing about it.

It is just a fucking shame to be afraid to let our dogs out in our own backyard.

May 26th, 2009

ABC's new fall lineup. @ 03:25 am

So, I went through and watched all the previews for the new fall shows on ABC... and I snagged a few that I like the most and posted them here along with my own comments and critiques... there are a lot more on the site if you want to go look at all of them yourself. I am LJ-cutting because I am a nice person.

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More about new shows on other networks over the next few days.

May 24th, 2009

YAY Fall Previews. @ 04:45 pm

So all of the major television networks have now put up their fall schedules... except CBS, but honestly I don't watch anything on CBS anyway.

There are a few new shows that look really interesting... I think it's funny that they are bringing back Melrose Place... the thing I find most interesting is that the landlady for the new show is going to be Sydney Andrews (Laura Leighton) from the old show... and I could have sworn they killed her... I very distinctly remember her in a wedding dress in front of the church getting run over by a limo... I remember this distinctly because this is when I stopped watching the show (I liked the character and was pissed that they killed her off)... I might check out an episode and give it a chance... then again, I tried to give 90210 a chance and that only lasted about 7 minutes before I gave up.

I was going to post a whole bunch of different stuff about different shows... but I am rather tired. I think I will take a nap instead. Maybe I will come back and post more stuff about shows later.

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