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May 21st, 2009

American Idol finale @ 01:11 am

feelin kinda: : bouncy bouncy
Singing along with:: cyndi/allison - time after time

spoilers... all though I doubt anyone that cares doesnt already know by nowCollapse )

oh well, now that this is all over with... So You Think You Can Dance premiers tomorrow night... YAY!!!

May 14th, 2009

AI @ 01:46 pm

so I kept up with what I said and I am not watching American Idol anymore. Ducky watched it while I was at school taking my last test. -- I have continued to watch Entertainment Weekly's "Idolatry" which is a video podcast type thing that I found on TiVo but it is also available on the ew.com website. -- Watching it makes me feel so much better because the people that host that show make the EXACT kind of comments that I make.. it makes me feel vendicated. -- They did this whole tribute this to Allison... I loved it.

I know Adam is probably going to win... I have come to terms with it. It's not that I think he is not talented, I know he is... I just don't like his style and it irritated me to no end that the judges never gave him any criticism at all, even when it was deserved... yet they could not give credit when credit was due to almost ANY of the other contestants. The whole panel is just SO biased ths season that is drives me nuts.

I have been debating watching the finale. just because in past years the final has always been a great show with all the guest stars and duets.. Allison will of course be on the finale.

Ducky hasn't watched last nights results show yet, so I don't know who went home... but I really hope it was Danny... Kris deserves to be there so much more than he does.

May 11th, 2009

(no subject) @ 05:40 pm

I am so tired... I don't know why... I got enough sleep and I haven't really done anything today aside from fighting with the computer (I won). Maybe it's just dread about having to go take my last Spanish test tonight?

May 8th, 2009

YAY @ 08:22 pm

feelin kinda: : ecstatic ecstatic

For the past, I don't even know how many years, I have been utterly miserable for the majority of the year because my room is the front bedroom of the house, with direct sunlight on 3 sides -- and we pretty much have zero insulation... so when the temperature gets above 80 degrees (which is 90% of the year in Houston), my room turns into an oven... add to the problem the fact that my room is the room in the house that is farthest away from the A/C unit and gets TERRIBLE air pressure... I can crank the air down so that the rest of the house if freezing and it is still warm in my room, not to mention the lovely inpact that has on our bills.

So, today - after ANOTHER long discussion with my mother, we went to Lowe's and bought a small, very energy efficient window unit A/C for my room -- all in all spent about $125. My friend eskimosatan helped me install it, and now my room is nice and cool. I am SO happy! I am going to sleep so well tonight.

May 7th, 2009

so done. @ 09:40 am

that was some bullshit...I am so done with this fucking show. I aready told Ducky that i am not watching the rest of the season.

May 5th, 2009

Simon Cowel is a fucking useless asshole douchebag fucktard @ 11:06 pm

cut for spoilers -- and wl551 you REALLY should just skip this one.Collapse )

I still want to beat the shit out of something... I wish I had a fucking punching bag.

*crickets* @ 11:24 am

it seems like facebook has taken over the world... it seems like only 5 people ever post on here anymore. -- I am not going to leave or anything, I love my livejournal... even though it has become a ghost town in an old western movie. I am just waiting for the tumbleweed to roll by.

May 3rd, 2009

YAY Day! @ 10:26 am

Ducky and I are about to head off to the movie theatre so see the new Wolverine movie... and then we are going to go out to lunch at the Grand Lux to celebrate my graduation from HCC and the completion of my Associates Degree. YAY!

May 1st, 2009

In a way, I almost miss cassettes. @ 07:35 am

feelin kinda: : contemplative contemplative
Singing along with:: cuts both ways - gloria estefan

I gotta say, the one downside to the modern conveniences of mp3s, and honestly it started with CDs but now is even worse, is that we don't listen to full collections of music anymore... we don't listen to the full CD, we skip to the tracks we want to hear and make playlists, and often we lose out on really good music because we just don't listen to what we have.

A few weeks ago I posted about the massive playlist I was making by going through my entire music collection and just weeding out the stuff that I would skip if it came on in the car while I was dirivng around... in that process I have now gotten up to Gloria Estefan... and when I was going through all her music, I was very surprised with the fact that I knew and could sing along with almost every single song from every one of her CDs, except for the most recent 2... and I realized that it was because i orignally had these on cassette when it wasn't as convenient to skip around so I would just listen to the whole thing unless there was a song I really didn't like and was worth the effort of manually fastforwarding the tape... and I realized that is the way it is with most of the stuff in my collection that I originally had on cassette.

When I get new music nowadays, I download the CD, browse through it to see what jumps out at me, and I usually add those songs to my current playlist in my iPod, and the rest of the tracks are pretty much forgotten forever. It's kinda sad... so I have now created another side project aside from my massive playlist. -- I have began putting entire CDs into a second playlist that I am creating for stuff that I have bought and haven't really given the full CDs a good chance... So far there are like 60 full CDs in this playlist. I plan to start going through it when I finish my current playlist project, which I imagine I will have the time to finish once this semester ends (just two more weeks) as I will be off for the entire summer and will have noting to do and no money.

in the meantime, back to Gloria.

April 29th, 2009

American Idol @ 05:50 am

feelin kinda: : irritated irritated

Idol is very frustrating to me this season... mostly because I very strongly dislike Adam Lambert... I have discussed this at length with wl551, as she is a big fan of Adam's, as are lots of other people out there.

It's gotten to the point that I don't even really want to watch the rest of the season anymore because I dislike this guy so much and I have a very strong feeling that he is going to win. Why do I dislike him so much??

Cut for wl551 because she has already heard me bitch about him enoughCollapse )

Okay, enough bitching about Adam.

Of the other four contestants, I would actually be okay with any of them winning. I have been rooting for Allison from the very beginning... ever since she did Heart's "Alone" I was sold.... I was a Danny fan in the beginning, but my liking him faded as the season went on. Kris on the other hand I wasn't that impressed with in the beginning, but he has grown on me a lot and I could totally see myself buying his CD (despite his odd Elvis side-mouth singing thing *wink*)... and that leaves Matt. I run hot and cold on Matt... there are nights when he does really great, and night when he tries to do too much with the songs and he fails... for me, tonight was a failure - but Ducky (and Simon) praised him tonight.

but as I was saying in the beginning... I don't even want to watch anymore... I used to be all excited on Tuesday nights because it was Idol night, but now I just cringe because I am going to have to deal with more Adam and Adam-praise. If it weren't for the fact that Ducky and I watch Idol together, I would just fast forward thru Adam and be happier... maybe I will just start leaving the room when he performs.

I am just glad that Allison has made it far enough into the competition that she will probably have a CD... I can look forward to that. There are plenty of Idol castoffs that went on to put out great CDs.

April 28th, 2009

Good Morning. @ 08:32 am

So, after the terrible weather we had yesterday, it started up again last night... although it was apparently much worse that I thought... this is what I woke up to this morning... (and YAY for my first ever video on youtube)


April 27th, 2009

graduation update @ 03:09 pm

to any of my houston area friends who were going to attend my graduation this coming Saturday... don't. I have decided that I will not be attending either.

When I get my Bachelor's degree in a few years, then yes I will attend... but I have decided I really don't care about this one that much and I don't want to sit through the hours of ceremony... especially since it is going to be ALL of the HCC campuses across Houston - and the high school students who get their G.E.D.'s thru HCC... there are going to be about a million and a half people... I know I don't want to fucking sit there for 6 hours and I don't want anyone else to do it either.

April 26th, 2009

Deja Vu @ 10:27 pm

feelin kinda: : accomplished accomplished

In my philosphy class, I just finished writing my last essay. We are currently covering the topics of ethics and morals, and how they are often formed (or at least influenced) by one's relgious beliefs. -- So our topic for our essay was gay marriage. This is like the 6th paper that I have written on the topic of gay marriage in the past couple of years... I wrote two in public speaking, two in English, one in Sociology, one is Psychology... I should have just kept the old ones and re-tooled them for different assignments.

Anywho, I am rather happy with how this paper came out, so I thought I would share it here for those that feel inclined to read it.

Gay Marriage PaperCollapse )

April 25th, 2009

R.I.P. Bea Arthur @ 10:25 pm

feelin kinda: : sad sad

I was very sad to hear of Bea Arthur's passing. Gay.com did a big piece on her life, activism, and some of her greatest moments on TV - you can find it here: http://tv.gay.com/2009/04/than-you-for-being-a-friend.html#more

April 23rd, 2009

ugh comcast is at it again. @ 02:08 am

So, comcast is completely cracktarded... they have apparently decided that they are going to move all of the local HD channels from their spot in the 300s to new spots in the 600s... so they sent out updates with this information to the cable boxes and to the services that provide the programming information for TiVo... but then, genuises that they are... they pushed back the date for the actual channel switch until Monday, when they will also be activating 27 new HD channels.

What does this mean... this means that according to my TiVo and my mom's COMCAST PROVIDED DVR... the channels in the 300s no longer exists and it is recording shows on the channels in the 600s that ARE NOT ACTIVE YET. -- So instead of recording our Monday night shows (Chuck, Heroes, Castle, 24) -- we had 4 hours of black screen.

A have called both Comcast and TiVo... comcast's response was basically "Everything will be fixed on Monday." - so they basically told me that my mom is shit out of luck... and she can not use her DVR until then because the DVR's ability to record is based on the programming information in the box - there is no manual recording option because according to her cable box, those channels no longer exist.

When I called TiVo, they were at least able to help me with mine... since I have cablecards and not an actual box, I can still turn to the "non-existant" channels in the 300s that are still active and manually schedule recordings by time, date, and channel. -- It took me about an hour to write down the do-list... cancel the preexisting recording that would have recorded a black screen, and reschedule the recordings on the "non-existant" channels. -- All in all there were 18 programs that I had to manually schedule.

And thank the gods between Hulu and Pirate Bay, we have been able to get a hold of and watch the shows that we missed while we were straightening all this crap out.

On the brightside, come Monday we were have 27 new HD channels... although I think there are only about 4 of them that we really care about.

April 22nd, 2009

facebook @ 09:14 pm

so I reactivated my facebook account to get in touch with an old friend that I found out was on there... if you are on there and would like to add me, I am listed as "Pup DiFranco" since it wouldn't let me use puppy as it says that this is not a real name... fuckers. -- or you can find me via the email address search --> dapuppy@gmail.com

April 20th, 2009

Graduation @ 04:42 pm

To any of my Houston area friends who would like to attend, I will be graduating from HCC with my associates Degree on Saturday, May 2nd. The ceremony will begin at 3pm.

Minute Maid Park at Union Station
501 Crawford Street
Houston, Texas 77002

Of course, if you can't make it, there will be another ceremony (and probably a party) when I graduate from University of Houston in 2-3 years.

April 18th, 2009

Allow me to introduce... @ 03:47 pm

The newest member of our family... This is Buddha.


We got him today... he is a Pug-Boston Terrier Mix... a Bug.

April 14th, 2009

Amazon Stuffs @ 06:02 am

feelin kinda: : irritated irritated

For the first time ever in the history of my journal... I have deleted a journal entry.

Why you ask? because at this point in time I fail to see any proof that this de-ranking is actually occuring. I have gone to the website and seached for several of the books that they claim are de-ranked, and I have found a sales rank on every single title. I did the search for keyword "homosexuality" as they mentioned and I saw the books that they were describing... but if you change the search criteria to bestselling... lo and behold, there are the GLBT books that one might expect to find. Hell... I simply clicked on "Books" from the main page... and then clicked on "Gay & Lesbian" and saw several of the "de-ranked" books at the top of the list.... so I just don't see a problem here.

Either the problem has already been corrected or it never existed in the first place and this was all some kind of hoax.

unless someone can clarify and show me exaclty what the big deal is, I will resume my experiences as a happy amazon customer.

April 11th, 2009

ding dong the wit...er... the semester is almost over. @ 10:58 pm

just another month until this semester is over... I will be so happy when I am done with Spanish II... I am content with the amount of spanish that I know... I can generally understand and converse with people and that's really all that I feel that I need... I have no desire to be fluent. -- but at least I have discovered that my teacher grades super-easy... I got a 95 on my first spanish test when I probally should have gotten a 70 or so. I just can't wait until this is over... there is just so much work to do and I so do not want to do any of it... I know this sounds stupid and lazy, but my spanish work makes me think a whole lot... and I just get tired of having to think so much. I don't think I have ever had to put this much effort into a class before... except maybe College Algebra... it's like I just don't feel confident in what I am doing so I am constantly having to second guess myself, and that's just tedious.

I have all this homework that I have to do before class Monday evening, and I just don't want to do it... I really want to just sit here and read my book that I have been enjoying for the past 2 days... I am reading "Brisingr" which in the third book in the Eragon series... the books are SOOOOO much better than the movie... but I am kinda sad that once I finish this book I am going to have to wait for quite a while for the next book in the series because this book didn't come out that long ago. This book was originally intended to be the conclusion of the series, but apparently the author didn't get to do all that he had planned so he said that he has expanded the series and there will definitely be a 4th book.

After I finish reading this, I think I am going to dive into "A Lion Among Men" which is the third book in the Wicked series by Gregory Maguire... Luckily I will have plenty of time to read soon since i can't take any classes this summer... I should be able to make a major dent in my "to read" list.

April 8th, 2009

YAY Vermont & Iowa @ 10:12 pm

(and while I am on the topic, keep up the good work Connecticut and Massachusetts) Nice to know there are two more places to consider if I ever decide to move.

and on the horizon... bills to allow same sex marriage are currently before lawmakers in New Hampshire, New York, Maine, and New Jersey

So, 4 states down so far... 46 to go!!

there is hope... things are getting better...

April 6th, 2009

the goddess Cyndi @ 02:14 am

I am sure that the same can be same about tons of artists out there, but I really don't think that Cyndi Lauper ever got the respect that she deserved as an artist. I remember back in the 80's, her first two CDs were enormously popular and spawned these mega-hits that will be forever remembered... but then she completely fell out of the public eye (mostly because of her complete crap third CD that I will get to in a minute) and was completely ignored until the last few years... and even then her popularity and fame (due to her humanatarian efforts) really don't really extend outside of the gay community.

She has put out 10 CDs... not counting Christmas albums and various and numerous collections over the years (thanks to her various record labels) Of those CDs, nine of them are really excellent collections of music... the only exception being her third CD "A Night to Remember".. I remember reading about major fights she was having with her label at that time and she made that CD out of contractual obligation.. and it's really obvious when you listen to that CD... the whole CD is complete crap excpet for one song "I Drove All Night".. there is just no soul in that CD.

But it is just a shame that she has put out these exceptional CDs over the following years that got no attention at all... "Hat Full of Stars" and "Sisters of Avalon" in particular are just phenomenal CDs that you can listen to all the way through and enjoy every track... and then there was "Shine" which the entire CD was never released in America as her record company at the time went out of business... all that was released here was a 4-track EP. -- As one of her die hard fans, I forked over the $40 it cost at the time and bought the full CD which is only available as an import from Japan.

Her new CD "Bring Ya To The Brink" is an okay CD.. there are a few really good tracks, but the majority is just okay. It's a dance CD... how great could it be? and she really is so much better than that. I really hope she has the opportunity in the future to make some more really good music like she did in the years when no one was paying any attention.

I had the opportunity to see her live here in Houston when she was on tour with her "The Body Acoustic" album... (before she got somewhat famous again) she played at a university to a crowd of about a hundred people, but her show was just incredible... I would even say it was one of the best concerts I have ever seen.

April 1st, 2009

google = win @ 03:44 pm

I love google... I am checking my email and I see this link for this new feautre... it takes me all of five seconds to realize that it is a joke. I love that the company has a sense of humor and puts out stuff like this.


EDIT: I just realized that it is April Fool's Day... hence the reason for them posting this... like I said before, it took me all of five seconds to realize it was a joke... but I wonder how many people are going to think that this is real??

March 26th, 2009

(no subject) @ 07:32 pm

Ducky is taking a nap... he said he wanted to sleep for 2 hours... it's been an hour and a half and I am really bored. If I was in there, there would be things to do.. I could watch TV or play with the Wii... but I am in here instead. with nothing to do. I could read, but my book is in the car... and if I went out to get it, that would require me putting on pants.

I want to go in there and wake him up... is that evil?

March 17th, 2009

The MegaPlaylist @ 02:47 am

feelin kinda: : intimidated intimidated
Singing along with:: ani difranco

I decided the other day that I was going to take on the ridiculous task of wading thru my entire mp3 collection and making an "everything playlist" -- the only criteria being "If I am driving my car and this song came on, would I listen to it?"

I don't know if other folks are as crazy as I am with music... even since I was a kid, I have always been obsessed with music... If I had back all the money I have spent on music over the years, I could buy a house. When I was old enough that my parents started givng me an allowance, I always spent all of my money on music... first on vinyl (first record I ever bought was Toni Basil), then cassettes (first cassette I ever bought was The Bangles), then CDs (first CD I ever bought was Martika), and into the modern era with my beloved MP3s (the first mp3 I ever bought was Evanescence)... and the best thing about mp3s is that I am able to keep all of my old music without is ever degrading... yes, I have Toni Basil, The Bangles, and Martika all in my mp3 collection... and thanks to my iPod I can carry every song in my collection at all times, and it all fits in my pocket... no more lugging around huge CD zip books. (I have 4 200-CD flipbooks in my closet right now that are all full.)

I am one of the people that actually would have a reason to buy one of those 120GB iPods... in fact, I was rather pissed that the 120GB ones came out about 2 weeks after I had bought my 60GB... I so would have spent the extra money to buy the bigger one. As it sits right now, my MP3 collection takes up 61.6 GB (over 12,000 songs)... my entire collection will not fit on my iPod.

Anywho... since I don't listen to the radio at all... I am the kinda person that will download CDs from amazon (I rarely buy physical CDs anymore - except for used CDs, they just take up too much space and once I have ripped them to MP3, I really dont need them anymore) and sometimes they will get lost in my collection and I will forget that I even have them, so I have to go back every now and then and find the stuff I haven't listened to yet and burn MP3 CDs (about 200 songs per CD) that will play in my car so I can listen to them... if I just used my iPod, I would get distracted and never get around to listening to all of them.

and then there is music that I love... but I forget about... so I have decided to evalute my entire collection and make the mother of all playlists... I have been at it off and on for the last few days, and I haven't even gotten through all the "A's" yet. -- But I have rediscovered how much I LOVE Ani DiFranco... its taken me 2 days alone to wade through her stuff... 24 CDs is a lot to go through.

Anywho.. time for bed now.

March 13th, 2009

R.I.P. Doobie @ 08:54 am

feelin kinda: : sad sad


Doobie hasn't been doing so well lately and we had to make the really hard decision to have him put to sleep this morning.

He was a very good dog, and we loved him very much. He was a part of our family for almost 10 years. We will miss him.

March 7th, 2009

la clase de español @ 05:27 pm

feelin kinda: : cranky tired of spanish

9 pages of spanish homework down... plus 6 online assignments.....

7 pages to go... plus 2 online assignments, an online chapter review, and an online practice test.

So much spanish... and it is all due on Monday night when we have our first test... at least I am more than halfway done.... I have a little over two hours before I have to pick up Ducky from work... then I have all evening tomorrow and Monday afternoon before class to finish it.

I just get so frustrated with spanish because there are all these little rules and conditions you have to remember... and to the spanish speaker they are just natural and don't even require memorization, but I have to really take time and think about it. It is the same for people when they learn English, I know, but they doesn't make it any less tedious.

and then there is the fact that... er... how to word this. -- Okay, I am not a genius or anything, but I have to say that most of the time knowledge comes easily to me. I am the kind of person that can go to class, listen to the lecture, do the assignments and end up with good grades without really having to study much. This class does not come easily to me... I get confused and when I don't know the answer, or when i work really hard and then get it wrong, I get frustrated and just don't want to do it anymore... it was the same way with college algebra... i just shut down. -- but I have gotten better, now I just take a break, go do something else for a bit and come back... or skip that assignment and come back to it later.

I don't think I told the story about my spanish class yet... lemme check... nope, I haven't discussed it.

Okay, so I changed my original spanish class that was at 8am to a class in the "second start" term that was an evening class. According to the schedule, the class was on Mondays from 7:00 to 8:30 pm and on Wednesdays from 7:00 to 9:30pm.

The first day of class, it was a school holiday, so no class... So the second day of class, the wednesday, I did not go because I was fixing my sleep schedule and I was so exhausted, plus it was the first day so I knew I wouldn't miss anything important. So, I go to my first class the following Monday. Class is going along fine... until about 8:00 when the teacher says, "Okay, we are going to take a little break now, be back in about 10 minutes and we will continue." -- This struck me as odd because the class was supposed to let out at 8:30, which in relaity means the teacher dismisses us at 8:15... so why would we take a 10 minute break and then come back for 5 minutes.

So, I went up to the teacher and asked her what time we were getting out of class tonight... and she said we would be letting us go at the normal time of 9:15. I was confused so I asked her to clarify our schedule... This is when I find out that the class is a hybrid class. We only meet on Mondays from 7:00 to 9:30, there is no class on Wednesday, but we have online assignments that replace what we would be doing in class.

WTF!?! - This is the third time this has happened to me at this college. It happened before with psychology (which I was fine with) and with Earth Science (which I was fine with because I had taken a very similar class before). The online schedule did not show this class as a hybrid class, the faculty just decided to change it to a hybrid class at the last minute to lighten the load on the teacher since she is teaching 6 classes this semester. If this were any other subject I would not complain, but with Spanish 2, I really needed the in-class time and the lecture to learn the material.

So.. I am taking this class that I am not really good at... with less instruction and a lot more work -- basically all the work we did verbally IN CLASS in Spanish 1, I have do in writing by myself in Spanish 2, it's a fucking ton of work and I have to turn it in for a grade.... and it's too late to find an alternate class, and this is my last semester at this college and I want to have this over and done with before I transfer to University of Houston next semester. I'm just fucked.

So I am busting my ass to get all this shit done and just crossing my fingers that I understand enough of it to get a passing grade. I do consider myself lucky though as I at least am only taking one other class this semester. The guy that sits next to me in class is taking a full load this semester... He has the same ridiculous workload that I do for this class, as well as 3 other classes to worry about.

oh well.. back to work now.

March 6th, 2009

EndTheLies.org @ 03:25 pm

Thanks Squishy for sending me this =)

Have you noticed that since it's no longer acceptable to openly
discriminate against lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender
people, right-wingers are resorting to lies and fear tactics?

The Yes on 8 campaign spent millions to convince California
voters that marriage equality was corrupting schoolchildren and
eroding their "moral character." Anti-LGBT groups say that hate
crimes laws will end freedom of speech and put pastors in jail.
They even argue that forcibly divorcing same-sex married couples
will protect their children!

http://www.endthelies.org is a new website showing some of the
worst offenders, and I wanted to pass it along. I just signed
their petition. I hope you'll join me.

Just go to http://www.endthelies.org and sign the petition in
the red box.

Thank you!

March 3rd, 2009

(no subject) @ 02:28 am

For my Houston area friends... we are planning a birthday party for Ducky at our house on Friday, March 27th at around 7pm. Mark the date!

February 24th, 2009

go watch this!!! @ 07:12 am

sadly embedding is disabled on this clip.. but you have to go watch this... my spanish teacher showed us this in class last night...


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